About Me

Who am I? That was a far easier question to answer a few months ago, before I started down this journey of exploration and self-acceptance. Now, my sense of self is both more solid and far more confused than it ever was.

Let’s start with the basics. I am married, to an incredible man who loves me more than I feel I come close to deserving. I am also a mother of two precious little girls. I’ve lived my life up till this point as a happily married, heterosexual woman. I had acknowledged in the past, both personally and to my husband and my inner circle of friends, an attraction to women that dates back at least to my late teens. I was willing to acknowledge an attraction, but never willing to admit that it amounted to anything more than isolated fantasies.

Over the past few years the truth has been harder and harder to ignore, and that has escalated over the past few months to the point that it is impossible to deny any longer. I am attracted to women, and I want to be with women. That part of the equation was actually the easiest part of all to accept.

Figuring out how to navigate this truth in the face of my current reality – my love for and devotion to my husband and children – is far more difficult. I searched the internet, hoping to see representations of this reality in the narratives of others, but for the most part came up empty. I decided to start this blog in the hopes that writing about my journey would not only provide therapeutic for me, but also that it might provide comfort to someone else out there who finds themselves in a similar situation.

For those of you who have been invited to this blog because you know me and have been trusted to witness this part of my journey, I just ask that you honour my need to be anonymous for the time being.  I will not post any names or identifying details on this blog, and ask that you do the same.

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